From the time I was a child I knew I was on a spiritual quest. When I was young, I vividly remember thinking I saw the devil on the wall. I now as an adult believe it was a low energy vibe or spirit I was picking up on or maybe a projection of fear from my ego. I also specifically remember hearing this voice from within, that didn’t sound like my own, telling me that my purpose was to teach love. I remember thinking, “Huh? Teach love what does that mean?” It occurred to me that maybe one day I would have a family, and that I was supposed to teach love to my kids. Now I feel in my heart that my purpose extends beyond that. We can all teach love to those around us, and I firmly believe that anyone who is supposed to be a part of that will find their way into our life or our circle of influence.
What does this all have to do with healing emotional pain, you might be wondering? Well here is the bottom line: It is my belief that so much of the pain we experience in life comes from muting out and not working on our life’s purpose. We can silence it by eating too much, making ourselves too busy and over-scheduled that we don’t possibly have time to work on our purpose. We can distract ourselves or we can cover it up with addiction, or feel lost when we think we have no idea what our purpose is.
The beautiful part about life is everything you need is already within you. You must stop moving, stop doing, and stop thinking to feel what is already inside you. We don’t always want to do this because we are afraid it might be painful, or too hard to bear, but what we are really afraid of is our ego, not our true self because who we truly are is love. Love is all that is real. Love is divine. There is either love or a lack of love. Everything else is humanly made. You don’t need to be scared of quieting your mind because what will happen when you actually feel the pain is that it will crack you open to who you truly are. There will be a crack in the pain and what will show up in the center is a bright, beautiful, warm, shining light, your true essence which is always peaceful, all-loving and whole.
Pain is there to crack us open. If we become still and allow that crack to spread we will see all the beauty that is already there waiting for us to grasp. We will feel so much better, and will remember that we are not our pain. All the pain can go away and be healed because of the true realization that it is not who we are. This is much different than stuffing your feelings and emotions; this is allowing them to heal.
My favorite way to heal is to meditate, to ask for my body to be cleaned of negative emotions and pain, to ask for my mistakes to be forgiven across all time and for their ripple effect to be stopped. I ask for the ability to forgive myself. Think of it as spiritual house cleaning. Let the bright light you feel behind your closed eyes cleanse you. I truly believe you will in time, and maybe with a little practice come out feeling the peaceful, loving person that you truly are.
The ability to listen to your intuition, or your spirit guides, however you choose to call it, is the key to healing your emotional pain. In order to heal your pain and move forward being happy all the way deep down in your core, is to feel like you are living your purpose. Life can be full of distractions, sometimes bright, glittery and oh so shiny distractions, but believe me there is nothing more healing than being still, cracking open your pain, and seeing the light that is really beneath it all.
If you’re not ready to receive meditation quite yet, my next two favorite ways to listen within is walking and yoga. Love yourself enough to begin the journey of self-healing. Sometimes a few minutes are all you need to make a world of difference!
With love, light, and gratitude,